They tell you to be authentic on the internet. And by they I mean friendly, charming, slightly quirky people.

Sure. If you are a nice person, and you need to get over your shyness to let other people bathe in the warmth of your presence, then it's a good idea. But hell if it's for everyone.

Half the time, my issues have issues. I am not a pleasant person to be around, or at least I believe so, and even if outside of my head I'm the greatest guy in the world, screw it, because I live inside my head, and piling my crap onto other people's plates brings such guilt that all the authenticity in the world can go and screw itself with an industrial drill.

Creators are supposed to have consumers of their art feel welcome, but I wonder if it's even possible when I spend so much time negotiating and breaking truces with myself that everyone else is often left behind.

Not from maliciousness but from survival.

Guess what I'm trying to say is I'm sorry for being me. And there will be updates for my stories this weekend, and I'm working on a second book, and it sucks that I can't be perfect at everything at once, all the time.